only_more_love | Tell me a secret

If you feel so inclined, please come tell me a secret--any secret. Do it PostSecret-style if you want. Feel free to post as many as you want. Just do it anonymously; I'll do the same. (In case you're wondering how to do it anonymously, all you need to do is sign out of your LiveJournal account and then revisit this post. ETA: Or stay logged into your account and just choose Anonymous after clicking on Leave a Comment.)

And if it wasn't already obvious since this post isn't f-locked, we don't need to be "friends" in order for you to comment.

We all have secrets, don't we?

*My previous "secrets" post is here.

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From: (Anonymous)

I still have sex with all my exes and have no planes of stopping

From: (Anonymous)

I guess my secret--for all the non LJ folks in my life--is that I get off on reading fanfic (ie. porn), and that I also write it. Somehow I can't see telling my friends who don't even use the internet about this addiction of mine...

From: (Anonymous)

me to

From: (Anonymous)

me three ;)

From: (Anonymous)

Despite sometimes managing to go months without, I don't think I'll ever be able to quit self-harming (and I'm not sure if I want to.)

From: (Anonymous)

Took the words right out of my mouth.

From: (Anonymous)

I am insecure in almost every relationship I have- I sometimes don't even completely trust my own family. I wish it wasn't like that.

From: (Anonymous)

that's me all the way. I already know for a fact I can't trust my dad and it would kill me to find out that I couldn't trust my mom or brother.

From: (Anonymous)

I still want to die sometimes; I know it's stupid, but I just can't shake the fact that I feel like my life is meaningless. And it makes me want to die. I'm not bringing anything into this world other than negativity. Might as well kick the bucket now.

I mostly see it as a way for me to restart my life. Maybe next time I'll be born with the strength to become a better person. I don't know; I'm the ultimate coward.

From: (Anonymous)

I've been with my boyfriend for about 6 months now and I'm still too scared to share any of my (less than vanilla) sexual preferences with him. I don't want to change his opinion of me, but I'm also thinking that if I can't talk to him by now then it might be indicative of a deeper relationship problem.

From: (Anonymous)

I feel like I'm behind all my classmates. They all are received by now unlike me that I still have to take exams to get my diploma and move on. I feel stupid and a loser. And it's my fault because I don't do anything to change that. I live my life as an outsider most of the time and it's sad.

From: (Anonymous)

I completely despise myself. I'd never commit suicide, but I think I have absolutely no redeeming qualities as a human being. I'm a waste of air and space.

From: (Anonymous)

Despite having almost a 4.0 GPA, and never getting into trouble, I still sometimes feel like I'm not good enough for my parents. My brother's really good at sports and that's all we seem to talk about in my family lately...and while I love watching my brother's sports teams and am really proud of him, sometimes I wish they could pay that much attention to my sport every once in a while.

Also, I'm 17 and I still don't have my driver's license. I'm scared of driving sometimes because I'm scared to have that much power over someone's life or death.

From: (Anonymous)

Also, I'm 17 and I still don't have my driver's license. I'm scared of driving sometimes because I'm scared to have that much power over someone's life or death.

Don't worry, I wasn't able to get my driver's license until I was 23, horrified to drive after that, didn't get my own car until I was 25. Law says you can drive doesn't mean you're ready, it's such a responsibility. If you think you better wait, do it, if you feel like doing it now and try to get rid of those scary feelings, do it. But don't do anything that you don't find yourself comfortable with.

From: (Anonymous)

Also, I'm 17 and I still don't have my driver's license. I'm scared of driving sometimes because I'm scared to have that much power over someone's life or death.

That is a hugely responsible attitude to have. You should be proud of yourself. I took, and passed first time, my test at 26. I wouldn't have been half as good a driver if I''d taken it at a young age.

From: (Anonymous)

I'm the same way about driving. It terrifies me.

From: (Anonymous)

Also, I'm 17 and I still don't have my driver's license. I'm scared of driving sometimes because I'm scared to have that much power over someone's life or death.

I completely empathise - when I first learned to drive, I used to squeak nervously every time I hit the gas. (Seriously. My driving teacher was not amused.) It's a scary feeling, but don't let it put you off driving forever; I know it sounds cliched but confidence in safe driving will come eventually. :)

From: (Anonymous)

*hugs* I'm 18 and I don't have my driver's license yet. Driving is fun but it's also totally frightening. It's helped me to talk it out with my family, I don't feel like I'm under a lot of pressure to get it right away anymore.

From: (Anonymous)

I'm a bit of a kleptomaniac. I've stolen from stores, friends, family, co-workers, strangers. I've slowly escalated over the years, and I'm deathly afraid of getting caught, but that doesn't seem to stop me.

From: (Anonymous)

You used to be me. I did get caught and it was terrifying. It also cured me.

From: (Anonymous)

I haven't had an orgasm with my husband in over 10 months. It's become a source of confusion, stress and tension. I really don't know what my problem is...

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I'm 20 years old and I've never been on a date, never been kissed, never had sex, a lot of nevers in there. I guess I'm afraid I'll be a complete flop at relationships because I'm not your average girl, and in my head that means I'm not that interesting. I'm also prejudge guys by thinking that they only like me for my body, not my personality.

i guess that's more than one secret ;)

From: (Anonymous)

I'm also prejudge guys by thinking that they only like me for my body, not my personality.

Hey, same here. Lately some guys I know have been attempting to kiss me catching me off-guard, telling me how hot I am and asking me out. Then I sort of block myself to them in a "first bother getting to know me, then I will kiss you" way. And I don't even think I'm pretty or hot!!

Sure I'm missing good things, but I do it anyway.

From: (Anonymous)

I'm 20 years old and I've never been on a date, never been kissed, never had sex, a lot of nevers in there.

Same here. Though it's hard not to let it bother me when my friends are hooking up left and right, I like to invoke a little Seeley Booth wisdom: Everything happens eventually...all the good things.

From: (Anonymous)

I'm 20 years old and I've never been on a date, never been kissed, never had sex, a lot of nevers in there

I just turned 25. Have never been on a date, never been kissed, and never had sex.

Most girls are scared of spiders, snakes, rats. I'm afraid of falling in love.

From: (Anonymous)

I was 21 before I had sex... all good things. Try not to worry.

From: (Anonymous)

I'm 26 and the same. I'm scared that will never change because I feel like I just don't understand how to be with other people.

From: (Anonymous)

Almost more so than the actual authors, I find the people who post reviews on fanfiction.net unforgivably stupid. That being said I'd like to state that I am horrified by 99% of the authors on fanfiction.net. I am utterly embarrassed by my countrymen and women who appear to have the absolute farthest thing from a firm grasp on the English language. I wish I could visit them at their high school or university and in front of their peers scream, "YOU'RE WRITING IS TERRIBLE! STOP WRITING THIS INSTANT! At your current level of 'suckage' decades of practice could not raise your skills to a point where even one sentence written by you could be considered fit for public consumption. Please, don't write another word. Seriously, you're probably better suited for a life that involves the BeDazzler in some way or another."

From: (Anonymous)

Gold stars to the person who finds ironic error in the above secret.

From: (Anonymous)

I would.. but I can't be mean..

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YOU'RE WRITING IS TERRIBLE!

Should be YOUR writing.

From: (Anonymous)

My boyfriend is a douchebag, and I'm fairly certain by this time tomorrow night he will have left me again.

From: (Anonymous)

i am bisexual, but sometimes i wonder if the only reason for it is that i'm so desperate for anyone to love me

From: (Anonymous)

I'm almost 35 and I buy everything I see of The Powerpuff Girls. *And* if it's clothes I wear it. T-shirts, socks, underwear, cd holders, mugs, bags, hair clips, etc. And don't even get started with my bed.

I find them *THAT* cute.

From: (Anonymous)

I can't stop thinking about my ex, talking to him, and fucking him.

He's practically seeing another girl and part of that makes me insanely jealous...I know he's only going to hurt me, but I still can't stop.

Every time he calls, I jump.

The post-breakup sex is fabulous and totally uninhibited, but I think what I really want is all the good parts of the relationship back. This was a guy I wanted to be with forever. At least in some naive recess of my mine. All the good things are gone and all I'm left with is this person who is almost always emotionally broken, angry, and resentful. Still, I keep going back for more.

Also, I've been trying to make 'healthier' food choices after the break-up and work out more. I think it's because I'm not comfortable enough with my body to sleep with someone else. I think it would make getting over him easier, 'cause I really love sex.

From: (Anonymous)

I've wondered if I have feelings for my best friend, who had a bad experience with a lesbian coming on way too strong and would probably be totally freaked if she knew I'd thought that way about her. I've since concluded that it didn't actually mean what I thought it might.

From: (Anonymous)

I have a crush on my brother's best friend.

From: (Anonymous)

I have only ever had sex with my husband, and despite loving him completely, and him being my soul mate... I sometimes wonder... and then hate myself for days.